belated christmas present

bibi, thanks for your second belated christmas present... The first christmas present that you gave me, i wont forget in my life...

i supposed to go and enjoy my holiday this week, but all changed due to my sick seriously. Is okay, place can go anytime but life is more important than everything.

i should face it, no matter what's the result is....

God, i know you can hear me... pls bless me.

Wedding

Wedding Gown from " New York Bridal" but i didn't sign package with them..:)

Wedding Gown from "法国台北bridal“, but i didn't sign package with them..:)

Last week i was busy preparing my wedding thing. We went survey the wedding photo package, looking for photographer... and my engagement ring and etc...:) many ppl said, married is a such wasting $$ . Cant deny, the preparation already cost nearly RM10k... but i'm satisfied with the banquet so far. i have signed wedding photo package with "Milan Bridal", the reason is.... their staff attidude is good!

If you're invited by me, don't get shocked. Maybe we have such a long time didnt meet up, or nvr talked more than ten words before....:) but it's sincerely from my heart...i treat you as part of my friend... hope you all don't mind...

累

有时真的觉得很感慨。。

我周围的人都变得那么不真诚。。

是我傻还是我笨？

不明白神神密密又能得到甚么？

我又不会和你挣。。

也对。。谁不想发财赚钱啊？怎么会告诉你呢。。：）




今天和我同事聊了下。。

他说我是个很容易知足的人

不会像别人到处想尽办法赚钱。。。

说的没错。。。我才不想做甚么女强人。。

只想和他有个安定的生活就好了。。




算了吧。。

连我妈都知道，我没甚么朋友......

虽然偶尔会感到寂莫......

反正我都已经习惯了一个人逛街，吃饭。这种感觉还不错。。：）

假装很坚强。。

是的，标题说的就是我。

我是一个很懦弱的女子，遇到一点挫折就想放弃

没忘记，那时我为了报告的事情，哭了几夜，也担心了一个月。

可是你却很坚强的告诉我会没事。。

现在的我，又开始在担心别的事。。。不想告诉你是不想被你责骂。

其实，我很害怕。。

明年婚后的我们会是怎样。。

我放下这里的一切，比任何人都需要更大的勇气。

我爱我的家人，虽然没常放在嘴边。。

所以，我想我必需假装坚强，不管以后会是怎样。。。

未来的路还很长，或许没有大房屋车子， 我都会陪你走下去。。

Updated @ 23/11

Finally, got my I-phone without informing frm my bibi... coz he was trying to give me a surprise. The story started from last thurs while i was excited waiting him to came back. I noticed that my phone cannot call out and i tot my W995 spoilted again!! When i stepped in his car... i noticed that there's one maxis paper bag on my seat~ haha, i just realized the real whole story men~ thanks alot to my bibi.. i love my phone much especially the photoshop effect!! And i know you love the game as well.==! i know i've spent too much on the phone casing, RM210 for the i-phone casing..but i love it much~:)

We outstation with his frnd on Sun. Four of us planning to go Muar and stayovernight, but really too bored at there!! So we decided heading up to Melaka. This is my first time go Melaka with bibi . ...tired but happy!! tot of nothing to buy, but we bought alot back in the end..:P

Lastly, thank you for paying off my credit card outstanding balance last week. But i know got another outstanding amount again now... save save for our next month trip now for sure..~:)Love.

♥♥♥

Oh yeah, still got two more hours can see my bibi alrdy...raining day, he gotta drive slowly...i'm thinking where to have our dinner later... cos tmr is a HOLIDAY. Of course, i wont let us go home so early men!! Anyway, we 'll be going to town area tmr...heheee, we're going to survey something yeah~~ :) To-do listing for coming days already done, gonna wait bibi accompany me to settle one by one...:P

Updated@14/11

这两天都没出门，一直开着电脑在家看pps.前天看了三部恐怖片。今天看了两部死里逃生的戏。害得我头昏脑涨。唐山大地震，和"alive"，实在是太好看了！！领悟到生命多可贵。

想说星期五我做了一件非常愚蠢的事。就是把我心爱的电话，弄跌进水里。这已经是第二次进水。尝试开机，也开不料。今天，终于可以了。：）虽然电话有点sot sot，可是可以打得出，打得进，我就心满意足了。bibi对于我这次的事，真是无言。我发誓，如果i-phone再发生甚么事情，我用回那种最便宜的电话好了。：（真是感到内咎，没有一件事情做得好。上次戒指不见，现在又搞得这样。这几个月，我真是破财消灾。

没关系，想想等多两天。。我就可以紧紧地抱着bibi睡觉。期待。。

Updated...

今天很得空，因为我真在追的戏“公主驾到”也看完了。想想也很久没写部落格了，今天就update下。

下星期，我的bibi就要回来了，距离上次回来虽然才三个星期。可是感觉就像三个月。真的很想他。最近吵架好像家常便饭的事这样，真的希望这次他的回来，能让我们找回之前的感觉。说好要省钱，所以我答应他这次他回来，我会少吃我的最爱“寿司”，少吃海鲜。没办法，下个月又要去KL血拼，我想是值得的。我知道你为了我们的将来，在凑备，烦恼。我知道你有我这个这么爱花钱的女友，也很懊恼。相信我，我不会让你失望。 还有，谢谢你答应让我买i-phone。真的很爱你,bibi....

我身边好多人都要去旅行，谢谢airasia，虽然这次我没有的订了，但也为他们感到开心。vivian,不要开心到睡不着噢。去了台弯，有甚么地方好玩，记得告诉我。：）

Last weekend..

only 1 picture with bibi while going for dinner

Is time to update my blog...:)

Very busy last weekend as bibi came back yeah. I pack my luggage and moved to his house when everytime he back to JB... i'm very cherish every moment when we be together...but this time really not enuf at all...:( thx for fetching me to work everyday bibi, i know it's hard for you to wake up.:P

I got a warning called last weekend, yes...it's from citibank!! they informed me that my credit card had overlimited. OMG, i scolded by my bibi... beside of the hotel + airfare, the rest was the spending of me...it's unbelievable. I'm speechless.... Luckily bibi gave me the last warning, I'm controlling myself not to spend over RM5 now per day...do you believe?...:P

开心的事。。

今天，我买到了我很喜欢的泳衣，真的很开心。虽然有点跨张，只是去海边走走而已，就特地破费去买泳衣。我长这么大，还真是从来没穿过，虽然就这么一次，我也觉得值得。现在的我，真的好期待年尾的到来。。：）

*每当我一个人逛街的时候，giraffee一定会陪在我身边。感觉就像你陪我一样。还有四天就能见到你，好想念你。

唯一。。

今天我选择用华语来写blog..感觉有点怪怪的。。。哈哈。。因为我觉得华语比较适合今天的内容。偶尔尝试下也不错。想想多几天就可以看到bibi..真的是开心。我真的很想念他。这几天就一直催他回来，因为他这次回来得很伧促，只希望能有多点相处时间。

时间过得很快，我和bibi在一起都一年了。感觉就像老夫老妻。回想当初我和他刚开始的时侯，是多么的不被人祝福。我不怪你们，因为连我自己都没有信心。我非常了解我自己，我是个害怕寂寞的人，一个相隔两地的爱情，根本不适合我。对他而言，我这种经常去clubbing的女人，根本不会看上他。就这样，彼此抱着玩玩的心态，开始了。我们的开始，却是另一段友情的结束。不过我相信，那个“他”迟早会明白的。

他是我唯一一个，不抽烟，不喝酒的男朋友。。真的很谢谢他，把我从那种“堕落”的生活救回来。如果不是你，我想每个星期六还是可以在eden看到我的影子。你管我很严，但我知道是为了我好。你也是唯一一个，会煮食物，帮我洗衣烫衣的人。对于做家务来说，我真的不如你。还有很多说不完。。。虽然你不是个百分百好男人，但是我以经很满足了。真希望能继续一直这样被你照顾。。：）

A little update....

Long time didn't update my blog... cos busy with work recently... nothing special happen during my weekday ..but... it's something happened today!! yes, we gonna back-packing soon... anyway...i feel sorry to him this morning, i scolded him without checking clearly.. but it's all settled now already.... i spent this whole morning to survey the hotel and make reservation..... i'm always the organizer and make sure everything all in order...but he DO nothing at all....!! i can't imagine how's the trip look like if organized by him...:P

I really duno why people so hypocritical nowadays... pls... u all really make me sick...so many DO & DON"T between a conversation & friendship... it's so ridiculous...:)

* Thought of updating more, but my eye is so sleepy now...tbc...

10/10/10

Today is a good day...10/10/10... !!think many people ROM and Wedding at today....:) Feel happy and wish them be blessed always...:) I mentioned about our wedding to bibi yesterday....both of us so headache about the invitation guest listing....coz we have not much friends and relatives ....:) so poor... he said, shall we ROM on 11/11/11...? hahaha... it's a good day to remember, but i wish can be earlier...i just hope the house can be done faster now....so we can start planning....:)

Going to grab some supplement from Yu Ren Sheng later....member sales up to 50%...:) cheers...

Clinique...

Manicure set from clinique....

do some shopping....perharps it can be my cny clothe...:)

i supposed not to split my post into two... bcs i don't know how to post pictures in one post yet...WTF!! well, i'm going to redeem my birthday gift suprise frm clinique counter today... this letter on my table quite some period alrdy, and it stated redeem within birthday month... so i tried my luck c whether can redeem successfully...coz i'm damn free .. after breakfast with fatty at cs, i went to pelangi clinique counter... guess what's the gift? chey..... just a manicure set (photo above)... the sales girl keep persuade me to buy this n that....i really cannot control myself lar... n bought it at the end... how i wish i have a dry and good skin ar... the skin care have cost me alot but still yet to c the result... :(

p/s: i'm sorry if i offended some of the reader here...i just want to share with your guys what had actually happened around me, and express my feeling...i'm not purposely to show something yeah~ :) cheers...:)

Saturday~

My Lovely Saturday....i woke up early in the morning.....was trying to gv bibi a morning call, but he still sleeping... after that, dress up and preparing to go out with fatty!!

The first thing i warning fatty when we sat down in the restaurant was...dun choose the food more than RM10...haha... we spent 10 mints on the menu... finally, fatty got his black pepper chicken chop...:) it cost me RM8.90..... walk around after my breakfast.. i saw a set of bikini.... and very like it...i sms bibi and ask whether can buy it or not....he is so unhappy...i tot he unhappy cos i spend money again....but not...guess what's his answer...? he said, i tot u shld bring bf to choose bikini instead of my bro....? lolx... he's so cute sometime... his response always unexpected..TBC

Real or Fake?

mm...is MIU MIU....i quite like this brand when i know it open the first outlet in Msia... but i suddenly change my mind...y? coz i saw lot of young girl took this bag recently... i not sure whether they carried the real or fake... however, i really cannot accept those people holding the imitation one and pretend like they're rich!! ... what for if you carry an imitation bag to walk around? if you really cannot afford , pls dun use it...:)

Counting down...13 days to go...LOVE...

The War..

Quarrel...quarrel....keep quarrelling with bibi recently, duno why!! Our war start from i-phone 4...he keep nagging me and said, this is my choice as i choose LV as my birthday gift instead i-phone.But now requested I-phone again...mm...finally,i've decided to give up coz i really dun wish the war to spoilt our relationship... even though i got abit unhappy.... many people like to ask me this question, what's my bibi working as? well, let me tell u all....he's not a rich guy....he's not driving a big car, he's not a boss, he's not doing any illegal business...he's not staying in a bunglow... but HE'S DEFINETELY LOVE ME ALOT... so will try to satisfy whatever i want....:) LOVE

i'm sorry....:(

i'm sorry bibi, i know i'm so careless, lost the ring...:( i have blame myself from morning until now... this is a couple ring... i rmb we took so long time to choose in order to have a same pattern ring last time... and purposely carve each other name on both of the ring...but now....:( i know u're angry with me now.. i also cannot get used and feel uncomfortable whole day today....argh....ring, pls come out ok.... for those who stole my ring, you'll be cursed from this mins onwards....!!!! :((((((((

Marriage....

Really like the teddy bear clothes...can i get it for my giraffee? btw, this is not the topic that i'm going to talk today... :)



Lot of young people getting married recently...seem like i'm getting older..haha...yes, i always have such impulse to get married even until today.....i think every women will have such thinking like me too...to held a memorable & romantic wedding...:) it's so touching when you say "I DO"... what me and bibi want is, a marriage without pressure, no need a luxury wedding, a simple banquet will do... y need to compare with others? it's so tired...,marriage is not a competition...:) however,i really hope you're the one who hold my hand at that time .. and till forever...LOVE...

Show House...

Finally, bibi went to see the progress of the show house today....pls god, can it be faster....y? bcs it will officially launch once the show house is done...!!tentatively end of this month...but i dun think so... mm, i'm not very satisfied with the house design, the price doesn't worth also...it's smaller than my JB house alot too... the picture shown the corner house ( left) more...pls bibi, i want the right one lar...

we're not rich..this house shld be the best of the best ...at Kemaman there, not much choice also...unless u're very very rich to buy bunglow there....otherwise...mm.... i really hope bibi can buy the house successfully.... i'm really looking forward to decorate our bed room...:) so i must always remind myself, don't anyhow spending again... that day we went IKEA, a very simple design, need thousand plus also....finally realized how powerful of my dad..:)

Kuantan....

Kuantan,Kuantan...yes, this is the place that i'm going to stay in future...mmm, not actually..Kuantan to my place still need 45 minits, like my JB house go to desaru...:) that place called Kemaman... a small town that not much ppl know...so i prefer said Kuantan...:P

i'll be going to Kemaman this year end, coz bibi said wanna bring me walk around and see our future house...mm, i'm not very excited thou...why must choose during my christmas....:( somemore need to attend his boss wedding... abit weird...

But heard there got a seaside called teluk cempedak....quite peaceful n relaxing...wondering really look like above picture? haha, i'll know it soon!!

My birthday present...

Really thanks to my bibi for the present...i know i've over my budget that you gave me again...:) who know burberry out of stock...otherwise, i will buy burberry.... but i still love this LV much lar...thanks anyway....and the coach.... i know u keep nagging me, cos u know it's unneccessary for me...but i wish to own one... i promise, i'll not buy any branded again in the short period okok :P i know we're not rich, you always ask me to save money for our future& house...sorry bibi...i'm trying to keep my promise and pls give me more time ok...love..:)

I'm a blogger now...

start falling in love with blog, tot of writing in Chinese, but it's too hard to use the translator.... so changed to english better...:) i told my bibi i was writing my blog yesterday, he felt curious, and tot i was doing this to attract his attention.... but i denied...bcs i found out that only blog can express my feeling...:)

Continue to my blog yesterday....what's the thing to make me depressed...alot... my health, friendship, work... everyone actually would have this period, am i rite? maybe i'm getting older, i need to encounter all this kind of thing... however, friendship shouldn't be one of them... i'm so sick, what i want to have, is a friend, who is truly and can accompany when i need them. no need much, one or two will do... but i couldn't even find one in my life... sometime i really envy those people in facebook, they can have a group of sister to hang out, yumcha,travel... is my problem? when i was in school period, i don't have any best friend also... got one, but she was the one who backstabbed me also... evryone told me why i so silly still be friend with her... what to do? i'm so kind hearted....haha... so, i told myself that, if i insist to find a best and truly friend, i'll be alone and till die also cannot get one, why need to be so degil? just satisfied whatever u have now...

I'm back....

Finally, I've back to my blog...it has been a long long time i didn't update my blog...one year after, did i become more mature than last year? frankly, nope...:) to be honest..... what i've changed is, my temper.... thanks God, let me found him...is him made me changed so much...my life, my temper, my character.... even though, we had a big quarrel last few weeks, but it ended up with SMILE ...coz we know, we cannot leave each other....we are truly deep in love... I really hope, he's my last...:)

Seem like my life is full of colourful, is it true..? nope..something made me depressed....:(